26 April 2011

i like you...

the girlies two were out late last night at swim team practice, which gave me some undistracted esmé time. i thought she'd need it after yesterday.

between me and you? i think i was the one who needed it. when in the world did i get so heartbroken about goodbyes? ugh. i bet i'm getting old lady, aren't i?




anyway. we played catch, i made her a very rare filet as red as she likes it and as much edamame as she wanted without stealing even one, i gave her a bath and let her eat jellybeans in it, and i told her stories about lillie and grae from when they were babies.

she loves those the most. especially the one where lillie dragged a still-crawling grae out of her crib, down a huge flight of stairs, through the living room and to the kitchen, where she then stood atop a teetering stool to get to the freezer and the box of popsicles because "gracie couldn't take a nap until she had a popsicle."

and a rather painful rug-burn, apparently. in retrospect, perhaps even a minor concussion. whatever. time heals all wounds, doesn't it?

every time, esmé's response is the same. "that gracie. she loves popsicles."

before bed, i read her a book from high up on one of her shelves. i like you by sandol stoddard warburg.




there are two parts in that book where i always get choked up. one is I can't remember when I didn't like you. It must have been lonesome then. and the other is I would go on choosing you, And you would go on choosing me, Over and over again. That's how it would happen every time. I don't know why. I guess I just like you.

esmé saw some writing at the back of the book and asked what it said. i told her it was a note i'd written to uncle sugar, and she looked very confused.

"did you give this book to daddy?" she asked.

yep.

"when you were kids?" she asked.




well, i guess it might have been before babies and oman and amman and all the rest. so yes. we were still kids in a lot of ways.

"so...you liked daddy?" she asked.

the conversation didn't really go anywhere after that and probably didn't mean a thing, but it got me thinking. i wonder if i'm showing the girlies often enough how much i like their dad. i mean, he knows i do and i tell you about how much i do and i feel like anyone who sees us together surely knows how much i do...but i wonder if insane schedules and threat-filled bedtimes and all the pat! can you come up here and kill this stinkbug for us? are getting in the way.

eh. it's probably nothing but i'm going to work on it. because i like working on a nothing. it's far less stressful than a something.

kiss hug kiss hug. i wrote it out because i mean it. have a sweet tuesday, you sweet you. also, i remembered last night why i've always dug the name holiday for a girl or a puppy. it's from i like you...that line We could be a HOLIDAY. We could be a CELEBRATION. We could be a WHOLE PARADE. kills me every time. random pics from storm in a teacup.

19 comments:

Brandi {not your average ordinary} said...

being a whole parade would be lovely. and i think if you work on anything, love is always one of the best things you can put time into.

la la Lovely said...

oh that is a good thought to think and good nothing to work on for sure. i have a lot of nothings to work on and i'm a little worried what my littles might think at the moment due to sky rocketing hormones -ha.
happy tuesday, Karey!
x Trina

Mallory said...

Have you ever told the story of why he is Uncle Sugar? I'm very curious...

Heather said...

My husband and I wrote our own wedding vows, and instead of "take this person..." we said "I choose you." It was important to us to think about choosing each other over and over. I better go get that book.

Richie Designs said...

{gulp} must have that book.

I also pulled my infant brother out of his crib when he was new and I wanted a baby doll. My mom rounded the corner to see me carrying him with his little head bobbing around- much to her horror.

he's mostly ok;)

Jamie said...

Just sitting here sobbing LOVE tears. Those are the best kind, right?! My absolute ABSOLUTE favorite post of yours ever. Oh and I MUST own this book riught away and also I think you just named my first girl, except I met a little girl named Moon this weekend who sang me and Max that song...How much is that doggy in the window and then she asked if she could give him a kiss. She was MAGIC. So Moon or Holiday. I think I still have some time to decide. xoxoxo!!!!!

raleigh-elizabeth {bunnyvictorious!} said...

I LOVE THAT BOOK!!!! i loved it when i was little. i gave it to all my brothers. and what's so funny is i just bought it for bill. this whole post makes me about as slap-happy as a popsicle in the sun in a world without a stink bugs. *a girl can dream*

krista said...

you make my heart sort of swell up with your words, you know that? swell up and then exhale and then it goes back to making music again.

Heather said...

i don't know that book, but you made it sound so lovely i ordered it to be shipped to my best friend - thank you!

LJW said...

My husband's sisters read "I Like You" together at our wedding this summer. It was my favorite part of our entire wedding.

Sherry said...

My BFF of 20 years is moving to England in a few months. I just ordered the book to give her as a gift. I've never read it, but am guessing it is perfect from your post. Maybe she and I will read it together for the first time when I give it to her...then both our tears will be on it :)
Thanks.

melissa loves said...

"we could be a holiday.." I love that. I want to get that book. And read it to my girls. I think they know how much I like/love their dad but, it can't hurt to let them know more. Did you know I like YOU? Well, I do. So very much. a big hug & a kiss to you darlin. And I mean it too.
xo
Melis

Kristin said...

that's probably a good thing for me to try a bit more, too. it is amazing how kids and schedules and walking the dog can get in the way of those moments where we just enjoy each other's company. thanks for the post... it's really gotten me thinking.

Simply Mel {Reverie} said...

oh karey, why can't we leave close to one another? i would give you the biggest hug ever because your words, your stories, and your overall wonderful self, YOU, warm my heart and fill my mind with the loveliest of thoughts.

Livyb said...

May I just repeat what Simply Mel just wrote? I always leave your blog feeling warm thoughts and thinking about how to be a better daughter, friend, sister....
Thank you!

windrock studio said...

Beautiful, absolutely lovely post.
I am really loving your writing and your thoughts and your girlies and I'm so very happy that you share all these.

Shannon said...

You and that e always get me thinking,
like is sometimes, just sometimes harder to show than love, love is kisses and hugs and cheers for killing stink bugs, but like, like is, dreamy looks and laughing a bit to loud at a joke you've heard close to 20 times and getting buttferflies for dressing up on a date and ahhh...I am going to take some time to remember how "in like" I am...

ZDub said...

Need that book immediately, you get me every time.

xoxo.

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