08 June 2010

things i learned this weekend...

this is my newest obsession. i'm a wee bitter that it wasn't my own concept, but i'm getting over that.




speaking of envy, allow me to introduce a most covetable wrist.




this wrist inspired me to switch up my own usual suspects this weekend for a few events. i snatched back a very cool watch that uncle sugar pretends he bought for me, and brought out some kukui bracelets which turned out to be a huge success. babes tried to eat them, littles asked if they could touch them, and there was even one grandly awkward moment involving the phrase i love brown nuts!

{sigh.}

this month marks the twentieth year my dad's been gone. did i ever tell you the one dream i had about him after he died? it was so real, i still feel it. he was sitting in a booth at a restaurant, looking exactly like the marlboro man that he was with his tan face and strong hands and just chill attitude. i couldn't believe he was back. it was both the happiest and most painful moment all at once.

i was floundering at the time. working at a ridiculous job in chicago while trying to finish an impossible thesis, and i was honestly directionless.

you know, he told me, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do.




and with that, i woke up.

i'm learning more and more that some projects and proposals are getting in the way of you. and this worries me to no end. because between you and me? i'm thinking it's not as much the proposals and projects, and much more that i'm outgrowing this space.

some days, i think i've used up all my words that will fit here. today is one of those days.

so i'm thinking of a little hiatus. there are a few things i want to do before my birthday - the third of july...mark your calendars! - and a lot of things i want to do outside of mackin ink.




take care, you. i'll be back soon. and xoxo.

35 comments:

jules @ The Diversion Project said...

oooeeerrr, we'll miss you too.

go forth and power on darl, hope it's a blast! xoxo

jules @ The Diversion Project said...

ooooo, forgot to say - make sure you send us a card and let us know where you are, and how you're getting on!

jxxx

Raleigh-Elizabeth said...

*sad sad sad* we will miss you, soon to be birthdayed girl

Sherry said...

you could write only once a month and i'd still be happy and hanging on to every word. who says you have to blog daily. it's so much work. sometimes i think 'who reads this and why do they even care'... it's summer and it's hard to do anything in the summer...unless it involves cocktails by the pool or shopping with your girlies. come back soon. oh...and....early happy birthday.

la la Lovely said...

my little heart just skipped a beat. I mean I totally understand.. i mean so happy for you just a little sad for me (i can be selfish). I do so look forward to your words. Just keep us all posted as to where we can find you should you go somewhere else! And ENJOY your break & all new & exciting things to come!
xoxo!!!!
trina

mrs. darling said...

i cried when i read your words about your dad and your dream. cried because i needed to hear that today, and dad's always have the best advice, don't they?

i hope your heart bursts with love and joy as you chase your dreams. we'll be here waiting when you return.

Richie Designs said...

we will miss you. go fill up on more words and we'll meet you back here.

Estelle said...

I will miss you like crazy but I undertand the need to explore different directions. Go do what you need.

The story of your father will stay with me forever. Thank you for sharing it.

Jill said...

Take care of yourself my friend... xx

Claire Gibson King said...

aww take your time. it is what you need. have a wonderful birthday and see you when we see you. no rush. enjoy your days.

agirl said...

Completely understood. But you will be much missed while you are gone. xoxo

Anne-Marie (10 Rooms) said...

blogs have lots of reasons for being.. maybe this one has served its purpose.. but we will welcome you back whenever you miss it!

Simply Mel said...

"Tools of the trade: ink, brushes, paint, pencils, pens, etc. are only tools to make marks. It’s easy to forget that the real energy that moves them comes from the soul and out through your fingertips." ~ enjoy the nourishing of your soul....I'll miss you dearly.

Shannon said...

I miss you already, I hope that you have a delicious birthday, filled with sparkly surprises and your girlies giggles! xxxooo

Tallulah said...

Oh gosh....I can't help but, be a little bit sad because I love your words so. But, what kind of friend would I be if I didn't wish for you to run with whatever has captured your spirit? Not a very good one, I say. So, off you go & I hope you are happy, happy, happy my darling!
xoxo
Melis

susan said so said...

sweet karey.

this has been brewing quite a while.

go. do what you need to do. and if you go someplace else, just tell us - we'll come too.

xox muchly,
susan

pen.ny said...

you are amazing, you know?

take your break, you know we'll be waiting for you.

that last little bit of words? best one yet. dream a little dream of me. i want that in the etsy shop!

enjoy your time off and hey, if we don't see you before your birthday in july, HAPPY BIRTHDAY:)

Pour Porter said...

It's always so nice to read your thoughts, browse your links, and catch glimpses of the rest of your life, but you're right you have to live your life for you. Come back when you want to. :)

TX Girl said...

I would be lying if I didn't admit how awfully sad this makes me. But all woman recognize the need for growing, learning, mothering and readjusting what doesn't work. I love this little space.. especially stories about raccoons and the girlies three. I second "susan said so".. I'd follow you and your words anywhere.

Wishing you much peace and happiness AND lots of shiny baubles on your birthday.

Melissa de la Fuente said...

oops....you know the "Tallulah" above was actually me, Melis, yes? sorry bout that! :)
xoxo

Di Overton said...

Just popping in to say hello. I'm not dead, just busy. Normal service will resume as soon as possible :)
Love
Di
xx

Relyn said...

don't leave... don't leave....

We can't take it again.

Happy blog break, my friend.

Brandi said...

hope all is going well, my dear. we all need a bit of a break now and then -- i think it's so easy to put pressure on ourselves to blog, every single day, as if it's our job. it's good to walk away for a bit and remember why you love it, or perhaps decide it's time for a change. whatever. you have heaps of support and love. don't forget that.

Mrs.French said...

the only reason i am ok with this is because i know you will be back and i know how to find you...your father was/is a very wise man. xo t

Kelly said...

A little sabbatical is always good for the soul. :)

Kristin said...

take good care of yourself while you're away and know that we'll be here whenever you decide to come back. happy (early!) birthday to you, dear Karey!

susan said so said...

i'm back because i'm reeeeeally missing you, my imaginary friend.

here's my sad face ---> :(

hope all's well.

xox,
susan

Gen said...

karey, i miss you. i always love reading your posts!

*hugs*

goodniteirene said...

you are missed lovey.....take your time though. indulge! indulge! indulge! somersault your summer away with the girlies if that's the way the wind takes you.
xo,
katie

Meander said...

ADORE the black trench!!!

kate said...

I miss you!

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ZDub said...

This hurts my heart so. 20. Seems like such a long time, but not long at all. My dad will have been gone for 5 next month, just isn't fair.

I think your dad sounds like a real cool cat.

Come back soon.

xo-Z

Joslyn said...

your dad's words are just what i need right about now.

just sayin.

Britt said...

my father died 6 years ago and i too had the most vivid dream after his passing. he picked me up in his old white car and we drove around together. he never said a word. he just existed with me. which was more than enough.

i was out of town when he passed away unexpectedly and i very much consider that dream car ride our final moments together.

amazing how they still reach us from the other side.

thanks for your beautiful story, it helped me remember mine!