05 April 2010

a sugared hi...

i've been sick in bed for most of the holiday weekend, and i'm still uncharacteristically slugggish.

i tend to panic a bit when i'm under the feather, as lillie used to call it, imagining all the things i'm supposed to be doing all lined-up and all stressed-out on one of those dreaded lists i avoid like. the. plague.

i need to find more freelance work. i have to just say yes to sponsored posts. mary and i must chat about making more t.ruffles cards. {i gave one of these to a little friend for her birthday, and i swear it felt like flat-out sweetness. i wanted to lick it.} i crave carving out more nothing time with the girlies three. no schedules, no barked orders, no random chores...and no computer. i wish i could swim more and smile more than i already do. which is, admittedly, a lot. and i dream about finding my writing a home, do you know? does that make sense? a book or a column or something that makes it all worth something?

there. i said it. ugh. it all makes me feel like i have the plague.

do you freak out when you're clearly not doing what you need to be doing? say yes...

oh, dear. i hope you didn't catch my sick. i'll stay away until i'm all better. until then, catch me on the sweeterie. xoxo.


jennifer said...

yes, yes! kind of like.. now :(

Kathryn said...

I definitely do. I'm thinking I might start taking a meditation class...

Feel better!!!

Barchbo said...

I don't freak out when I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing. Because I have learned that I really don't know what I am supposed to be doing.

Richie Designs said...

I stayed in bed all weekend too not because I was sick but because I just wanted to.

It was the first time in over a year that I had two days off in a row. About Sunday midday I thought I should be doing SOMETHING. and then I just said NO.

I panic I should be working always. it's a problem.

Mlle Paradis said...

totally. hope you feel better in every way soon.

LouBoo said...

Freak out? God yes all the time. That's modern life isn't it? But I always think getting sick is a sign; and spurs me into action - healthy food, vitamins, drink more water, go running, anything to get the health balance back!

Amie aka MammaLoves said...

You're writing does have a home. Giving it a column doesn't make it more official--or better.

Feel better chica!! Miss you.

Boston Baked Beads said...

I generally have the panic attack after I didn't do what I was supposed to do. I enjoy it my freedom at the time but then I get the guilts...even when I'm sick in bed. Which is crazy because it's not like you choose to be sick.

billy said...

Sweet Karey

Take a deep breathe and feel better soon.

Please don't take put your writing somewhere I can't reach. I would miss it so much.

You and your work are worth much more than money.

essie said...

i'm with billy.

even tho, i
'm flying the freak flag
loud and clear
(according to my lovies)
at least
once a week

but billy is right-

go find
uncle sugar
and your
give them hugs and love
and ask for matzoh ball soup
it works wonders!!

Krissy said...

hope you're feeling better sweetums!
I do freak out when I'm not doing what I want to be doing, but I'm not sure I'll ever be certain what I'm doing is what I should be doing... make sense? yeah, I thought so. xo

Estelle said...

Oh the freak out. I know it well. Feel is more than I would care to admit. I can relate to all of what you said. Especially the finding a home for your writing. I get it. You will find it. Keep at it. Your words are lovely and thoughtful and many people find inspiration in them. You are doing great.

Robin said...

oh yes, I freak out too (doesn't everybody??)

breathe and chill with the girlies then eat something yummy for dinner - my recipe for feeling better.

also...I would be first in line to buy your book!


Ashley said...

Yes I do freak out when I am not doing what I should. But most of that tine I am "wasting"m is spent reading blogs like yours. It give me a little inspiration to carry one with my day.

Simply Mel said...

Oh yes, I freak out a lot. Those darn lists just keep my mind reeling at night....if only there were 36 hours in a day!

And yes, more t.ruffles cards please! pretty, pretty please.

jules @ The Diversion Project said...


yes, yes. yes.

i had a similar weekend, with the feral boys at their dad's and they're gone for a whole week! :(

when i slow down, either from illness or no boys, i get full of self doubt and loss of direction.

sometimes i feel like a sling shot, pulled so tight and so tense sometimes trying to take aim at what i want, then either my aim slips and i miss my target completely or i snap off at those around me. then i'm spent, until i start taking aim again.

you do whatever it takes Ms M, if i could i'd come round and make killer martinis and talk till the wee hours and a plan was hatched. But instead, i'll wait here with everyone else. you just tell us where we're going and we'll come, with bells on. xoxoxox

susan said so said...

freak out? no.

feel guilty? sometimes.

but wait - are we talking about what you're supposed to be doing on your to do list, or what you're SUPPOSED to be doing? as in, with your life?

the first kind you can learn to blow off with impunity. the second kind? it's there for a reason, and if you blow it off you risk worse than guilt.

but you know this stuff, sweet karey.

and jules is right - call us all Ruth, for "whither thou goest..."


Jane Flanagan said...

Hope you feel 100% soon! And yes, I'm always freaking out over my insurmountable to do list.

susan said so said...

I just found this on Kind Over Matter, and reblogged it:


I think it's meant for you. : )


Beverley said...


there are million things i should be doing at any given second, why don't i want to do any of them?

::sigh:: let me know when you find the answer, i've been looking for awhile now.

Brandi said...

karey, i feel like that all the time. what i've discovered is that as long as you stay true to yourself and convey your passion for what you do, doors will open to you. i sincerely believe that. you're a brilliant writer and i have no doubts that your writing will find a home. maybe it's time to go opportunity shopping. and t.ruffles needs a book. definitely. like oh-my-golly-you-have-no-idea-how-much.

Melissa de la Fuente said...

Oh, of course I know what you mean! I am so sorry you have been feeling bad, sweetie. I hope you feel better soon. And you know, I have said from the start....that there is definitely an awesome home waiting for your writing and your words. I just know it, with all of my heart. :)

la la Lovely said...

So so so freak... I haven't been able to get online all week and I felt like I couldn't function. Not so much because I wasn't online but because I couldn't be and now I feel like I have way to much to catch up on. Nothing time, I dream of it.. if only I would let my brain go into nothing mode.. my head is like one giant list that won't stop even when it should for playtime.. Anyhow.. hope you are feeling better that is def no fun! And you're writing will find the most beautiful home. The perfect place where perhaps we can all come to visit!
xx Trina

Natalie said...

Absolutely. I don't get to sit still a lot (most of it self-imposed), so whenever I do, I feel like I'm doing something I shouldn't and start to panic until I find something to do.

A-M said...

I freaked for many a year. "What am I going to do with my life"... hubby gave me the best advice.... "just start something, it may not be where you want to be but by starting you will find your journey".... he was right. A-M xx

Vintage Simple said...

Well, I'm late to comment... I hope you've found some peace. I've been struggling with a lot of this, too. The daily lists and the Life-Long List. The truth is, most days, I think I know what I'm doing, and then most nights, I lie down and I realize I don't. At all. Just like that. Sigh.

Your writing is beautiful, Karey - and I know you will find a home for it. I do.

much love,

BERRETTS said...

Hi, I just came here from designmom and LOVE your blog.
Your sentiments about finding your writing a home really plucked a string. I just got back from a writing conference (I too have been searching for my writing's home and fortunately found one) and something E. Lockhart said really resonated with me. I thought I'd pass it on, just in case...
"I finally had to get over the type of writer I wanted to be and be the writer I actually was. And maybe me from ten years ago wouldn't be very impressed by what I was doing, but that me hasn't had the journey yet to know that this is what I'm supposed to be doing."

Kristin said...

karey - i freak out all the time. i think it's normal. right? i hope so.